Humanity Within

This isn’t the most pleasant of photos. This isn’t a perfect image of me posing well or looking my best. This is me after crying for ten minutes. This is a real, raw, version of me that for some reason I felt safe to share on this blog that maybe three people read. I can’t […]

time is but a sweet memory

Here’s a little poem that one day might become a song. It’s about my best friend and I escaping to Florida from the cold, very (VERY) last minute. I remembered our time in Florida when we got home and it felt like it was a dream, so fleeting and friendly, SO fleeting I almost missed […]

Slow Dancing with Love

Before I begin to let my mind loose on you, I must admit I’m a bit intimidated about this subject- The painful, longing, desperate craving for a romantic relationship when you’re not necessarily ready for one. Warning: Marija was hurt in the making of this new perspective. Proceed at your own risk.  I grew up […]

The Secret to Love

———- How do you become brave enough to give love to others, unashamed of the aftermath, without a second thought of whether they deserve it or not? I’m going to tell you this right now- go ask someone else. When it comes to loving others around me I can say what I want and pretend […]

misconceptions

i used to call the tears that sunk into my pores, unfiltered and dirty emotion. i used to call the overwhelming need to breathe a clearer air, tangled and selfish ambition. i used to call my hearts whisper for those who my soul had cried for, a sound too loud that should be silenced. and […]

untangle

i want to go back to when life was just about discovering the next part of myself…it’s seems within the growth, i have lost the core of my being. the more i push myself to give the aspects of me that i find my identity in, the more i feel stagnant. day to day, life […]

caretaker

i trail the lanes of a greenhouse. caressing the limbs of the living in hopes it will shed its life onto mine. in hopes it will fulfill me with the energy i once was known to have. they reached out to me, so gentle and soft. never intending to overgrow or invade the space of […]

natural selection

The essence of music so loud it’s like it’s the beat of your own heart, and in a way it is. it seems to be keeping you alive in that moment. in that two or three hours you forget about what it is to grow up. you forget about anything bad or anything sour, it’s […]

vanquishing sea salt

as i lay within the sea salt waves every atom of myself and it interlaced i remember once they looked my age at seventeen in feet. to what i defined the dark blue habitation to creatures with teeth. but now i submerge myself underneath the rhythm of the crash that has begun to soothe me. […]

hallucinating

i get stuck thinking there are microscopic pieces of me in places i haven’t been, and in things i don’t have. like there are particles of me i’m looking for, in the form of dust floating aimlessly ahead of me somewhere. the sparks i feel trick me into thinking i need something tangible to be […]